This is not a cure!!!!

Its not a cure?!? Did you catch the first time? "This is not a cure. I am just a vessel used by God to do his will!" (Insert jaw drop here) Don't feel bad if you missed it the first time....I did too! But there I was sitting in church, I do not remember what the sermon was even about...and it hit me like a ton of bricks. I heard it in the very depths of my soul....this is not a cure!

Over the next couple of weeks, I began to attend Celebrate Recovery.
Hi! My name is Sandy! I am a believer in Jesus Christ! And I am a food addict!

Over the next few months, I attended large group and the A-Z class. I then stepped out in faith and signed up to do a Step Study. 12 steps to freedom!
1. I admit that i am powerless over my addiction and compulsive behavior and my life has become unmanageable.
(I thought I was managing just fine)
2. Came to believe that a power great than myself, could restore me to sanity. (Sanity....yay!)
3. I made a decision to turn my will and life over to Christ's care and control. (Completely...His Will)
4. I made a searching and fearless inventory or myself (wow that could be depressing)
5. I admitted to God, myself, and another human being the exact nature of my wrongs. (Thanks to a wonderful sponsor who allowed me to "emotionally vomit" without judging me)
6. I was entirely ready for Hod to remove all the defects of character. (This was hard or me...I liked some of my defects)
7. I humbly asked Him to remove all my shortcomings. (Ok...if I have too)
8. I made a list of all the persons I had harmed and becoming to make amends to them all. (I became willing!?!)
9. I made direct amends to such persons whenever possible, except when to do so would hurt them or others. (Wow this was hard....but it was healing and opened lines of communication in so many ways)
10. Continue to take personal inventory and when wrong, promptly admitted it! (Most of the time...not perfect)
11. Sought through prayer and mediation to improve my conscious contact with God, praying for knowledge of His will and the power to carry it out! (This is necessity)
12. Having had a spiritual experience as a result of these steps, I tried to carry this message to others and to practice these principals in all my affairs. (Spread the healing power of Jesus...amen!)

I have been part of the leadership team for my local CR for more than a year. I have learned to control my urges to binge eat and use food as an emotional crutch...for the most part.

I still struggle and God is still working on me daily!

Most recently I received a blue chip (that is the 1st step in CR) and the red (for 30 days) to work on my issue of what types of food I put on my mouth. Although I had beat the addiction, I still made poor food choices. God convicted me once again "honor God with my body"